Turn Away.

Turn turn away
From the sound of your own voice
Calling no one, just a silence
Run to see you at the edge
Fall off the avalanche
Turn away

Hold hold the light
That fixes you in time
Keeps you under
Takes you over the wall
That love divides between waking and slumber
Turn away

Turn turn away
From the weight of your own past
It's magic for the devil
And betray the lack of change
Once you have spoken
Turn away

My next 9 months.... or, how I intend to go to Grad School to find myself.

I am obsessed with the Beck single "Turn Away."  It has the right mood and vibe to describe how conflicted I currently feel.  I am wrapping up an eventful 6 months in this current role, where my life has been in turmoil and tumultuous the whole time.  I am angry, hurt and frightened that I can suddenly be out of a role due to someone's whim. 

I work with a good group of women, who are each strong and bring a lot to the table.  I have seen this once cohesive group descend into anarchy.  I have experienced backstabbing from a core majority of them,  and don't really know who I can trust.  I didn't want to go, and I felt that I had made some friends in this role.  As my last two weeks dawns here, I don't really know what to believe anymore nor do I care anymore. 

I don't look at the coming days as running away from my problems, but I do look at it as gaining perspective.  I have been anxious and on my toes for the past six months, and need a break and to gain some perspective. 

Everything has been in shambles gradually over the past year.  I don't think I will hike 1000 miles to find myself, but I like to think that surrounded by my studies and family, this will help me to move on from this period of my life. 

Humble Introductions.

So I have a little bit of spare time right now and thought I'd create/re-vamp a blog.  I really don't have a lot of experience in this realm, but figured I'd give it a shot.  I have read through the forms and suggestions, namely, to create a specific focus for my blog.

Lifestyle?

I don't know.  I've only just discovered decorating, and my cooking skills are a bit sketchy.  Alternatively, I can make a mean cupcake and cup of coffee.

One thing is for sure, I am going to limit discussions of my day job.  I work in a high stress industry, under constant pressure and demands... needless to say, it leaves a bit to be desired.

Welcome to my insanity.