I am obsessed with the Beck single "Turn Away." It has the right mood and vibe to describe how conflicted I currently feel. I am wrapping up an eventful 6 months in this current role, where my life has been in turmoil and tumultuous the whole time. I am angry, hurt and frightened that I can suddenly be out of a role due to someone's whim.
I work with a good group of women, who are each strong and bring a lot to the table. I have seen this once cohesive group descend into anarchy. I have experienced backstabbing from a core majority of them, and don't really know who I can trust. I didn't want to go, and I felt that I had made some friends in this role. As my last two weeks dawns here, I don't really know what to believe anymore nor do I care anymore.
I don't look at the coming days as running away from my problems, but I do look at it as gaining perspective. I have been anxious and on my toes for the past six months, and need a break and to gain some perspective.
Everything has been in shambles gradually over the past year. I don't think I will hike 1000 miles to find myself, but I like to think that surrounded by my studies and family, this will help me to move on from this period of my life.
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